Standstill

posted Feb 11, 2012 | views: 62 | Tags: depressed, lost in thoughts, afraid, thinking about my life, standstill

I'm at a standstill. No direction to go in. Tired of thinking about past mistakes or living in the future. Tired of numbing myself in the present. But mostly I'm just tired of feeling like I'm nothing. That I've accomplished nothing, which I know is not true.

I know what's not good for me. I know what I should be trying to do. But I end up doing nothing, but go through the motions. I keep thinking if I just wait it all out, everything will figure itself out or fall into place. I'm trying to wait out my own mind. How can I possibly do that?

I'm afraid of the unknown, but also of staying the way I am.

Where do I start? What do I do first?

I already know the answer to that.

Get up and do something that would make me feel productive.

If I'm not thriving, I'm not really alive. I'm a walking pulse.

I'm sick and tired of being that way.



Comments

  • Me-Myself&I said Feb 11, 2012...
    yup, i know all about standing still in time. but you know, sometimes it is needed to do just that! Take care
  • BestInTensions said Feb 12, 2012...
    Just know that you aren't alone in feeling this way. I read your post and felt relief that someone was going through the same thing I am. There is nothing worse than feeling completely alone. I've been out of work for almost a month and seem to only land factory jobs that most people are not willing to work. I have college degrees and still work along side ex-cons and illegal aliens. I am trying though and I will continue to try. I would suggest doing things you don't normally do that may be a little bit outside of your comfort zone. Nothing too drastic but you might just find out that you really enjoy something that you would have bypassed normally. If you ever need to talk you can always message me. Wish you the best.

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